This post comes straight from dubai...My home for the next six months...
Throw in a little bit of anxiety, a little bit of excitement, a little bit of "not belonging here" feeling, a little bit of determination and a little bit of fear of the unknown and you will feel what I am feeling right now...
the last couple of months have given me no time to think of what will happen in the future but i have only played catch with the immediate present...the last few months starting from March 19 have been so fast that I cant believe its not even two months since that fateful day...
the result, the excitement, the run for getting the first installment in, then the run for the getting the rest of the dough, the dash for getting the docs in order, catching up with family and friends, working side-by-side and trying to make sure that I dont give anyone a reason to complain and someone else answering for me, fighting and convincing my superiors to relieve me of my duties, making and updating lists everyday of things to do...there has been so much of running around that these past few weeks have seemed much longer than they actually are...
and now i am here...
in a new place...among new people...amidst a new atmosphere...a new beginning to put it in a few short words...
and it scares me and it also excites me...
it will definitely start something that i have always wanted for myself...
now that i am here i want to make sure that i carry on the good work that i did to get here and live up to everybody else's and my own expectations of myself...
the one good thing that this opportunity has already done for me even before i get on with the real thing is that it has made me plan for the future...in a way i have never done before...there is a sense of urgency and a repurcussion for everything that I do from here on...and so i have to think and act all the more carefuly...
this all may seem so bookish and philosophical...but thats me right now...
i dont know how things will happen from tomorrow on...but i know that things will work out...just need to stick it out...
i dont know when i will be back...but i know i will...just need to wait it out...
Cheers till then,
sameer
